My Life, Your Story.

Haiz today juz mentioned a bit to mum bout me gg to church and she came out wif things bout wat christians r selfish, self-centered, only cares bout their own religion and didnt respect other religions, then started complaining that no one will be there to Song4 her Zong1 when she died blah blah.........Kaoz.. den tell me go listen to Fuo2 Li3...said its more Buo2 Da4 and deep then christianity....haiz i dun even dare think wat more will come.. everytime hear li kana scolded by 5th Aunt (her mum), and 5th aunt even cursed Jesus, and forbid her to go anymore.. I was so surprised that she still can be that strong.. And so cheerful. Think this is the power of Him. But im scared...losing faith. Know my whole family and relatives will go against it. Im scared that my faith for Him might not be strong enough to face the same persecution that li is facing now.

Had a long talk wif melvin juz now. He told me many things, and cleared some of my doubts im having nw. Did strengthen my decision a bit. Think all of them were v worried 4 me coz i went service last night wif a black face. Was so tired and sick. Felt its a total waste of time, and dun wanna go of "peer pessure". But nevertheless i turned up. After the service, i didnt regret attending it. Felt recharged again. Haiz but im scared this kinda sick feeling will come again, discouraging me to go in the future..

I think i need to step out in faith, a bold step forward. Or else, i shld juz stop gg to church at all liao...