To my Jie

Think we both juz like to avoid awkward situations tt's y mostly we juz wrote how we feel in blog. But sometimes it juz makes me wonder if u have the time to write ur blog y dun u have the time to talk face to face to solve wateva problems u think might have? why? scared tt i might rebuke u again? So u chose tt mtd.. a way to let me hear u and yet didnt leave me a chance to speak up for myself?

My previous entry.. was damn pissed. Coz juz saw ur blog mah. And was v v angry. But i erased my previous entry off, thinking it shldnt be like tt. The approach shldnt be that way. It's way too harsh on u to read tt too. Hrmm haiz let's juz say we dun have enuf communication recently. Ur mentality were still in my past, my past where i lead a life of ______, and thus misunderstandings arose. It's the same thing as U and U-noe-who. I "thought" tt u 2 were blah blah.. but yap u clarify with me regarding tt, and im pleased. Hope that u know tt i've changed my life too.. And not as if i didnt repent my mistakes, and only wait til i've taken the bitter medicine b4 i woke up. Wah tt's cruel to say tt in ur blog lor. Was both furious and sadden when i read tt. But heng i felt peace now to type this.. I'd woke up le my dear.. Pls lor how cld i not wake up?? Especially aft norman this case. I had. I dun and WONT go back to the past. Juz tt probably u didnt realise this ba and we recently really didnt have much communication, juz heated up msn or sms, which is UNHEALTHY for a friendship i muz say. Sorry for misleading u to other matters and led u think otherwise. Prob i juz Si Ai Mian Zi and acted strong in front of u, and reprimand u too. But hey, u need to be reprimanded too hor.. =P We both made mistakes.. quite similar thou.. okok im worse.. haha.. hrmm but it's whether we will accept the mistakes tt we'd made and repent. I will WAIT for my ONE to appear. Knows God will instore someone really gd for me. And this person will turn out much better than i expected. But i have to be obedient i know. God gave grace, but not CRAZY grace. Hee so i have to be guai guai too... Hope u feel the same way towards God as how im feeling now. U are close le.. juz a little bit more.. Hang on.. And u will see the light. I love U jie, and i know u love me as much too. Sorry for making u worried for me recently. Im ok now le. Really. Thkx.. =)