passion.. dreams.. wateva..

Listening to Xu Jie Er's Wo Ke Yi Ren Shou again.. v nice.. Bai Ting Bu Yan.. Esp aft watching its MV tt wyun sent me.. Suddenly can feel the song from another perspective.. Watching her crying and screaming out her tots in the rain.. All drenched.. So Xin Suan..

Its amazing how someone can hurt another one so deeply.. The heartbreaking feeling.. & yet there r still ppl out there who are willing to get hurt, or risking the chance of getting hurt. But there r ones who closed up their hearts so tightly too, forbidding others to enter. Prob they juz need more time.. Or they are confused, or even, disgusted of ppl out there, who specialise in breaking others' hearts? ha i duno.. not much experiences myself..

Wonder wat is love? or rather, is there any in the first place? is there true love ultimately? or is it juz a world tt is full of lust.. flesh to flesh contacts tt some juz interpret tt as love..

Ahh tis song's making me itchy to sing again!! and i mean REALLY sing.. to many ppl.. live.. not juz cropping up in some room of mine or ktv.. haha.. asking too much? yeah i guess so.. prob i juz dun have the courage in the past to go all out for my dreams. No chance either. i mean i aint lucky as some ppl who get to learn singing/dancing/piano @ a v young age. Parents' financially not capable enuf. And now? its kinda too late.. Broke myself too to take up any singing courses, as much as i want to. Got to chat with this online fren few days ago. Really envy his life. He noticed his interest towards music @ a young age. Went into Chinese High Sec for the 1st yr & then, gave up his studies, flew off to australia to study music. His parents fully backed him up then, both mentally and financially. Now? Studying in Lasalle, Diploma in piano, occasionally singing & performing @ some special events/occasions, even @ Esplanade.. & teaching piano too, including ppl tt's older than him. Was in Hai Die for a yr, further polishing up his singing, friend wif some big shots in the chinese pop music industry, and a student of one of the judges of the upcoming Singapore Idol. whew.. and how old is he only? 19.

I mean probably there isnt much of "big bucks" u can earn in this industry if u gonna be juz another small fly, a music person.. esp for the market now. But it's the passion towards something.. tt keeps u going and going and going.. ad even if the road ahead might be hard, u'll think its worth it, coz u juz like wat u r doing. Isn't tt the most impt thing in life? i admire him.. i really do.