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I REALLY can't stand myself.

To think that i can alwiz getting upset over small little things. And the most frustrating thing is i myself know that they are stuffs i shldnt even bother much abt, let alone getting upset with. BUT nevertheless i still do.

Kaoz. Like when frenz r super reluctant to even try coming 4 my service; jie didnt bother to msg me tt she's not coming (twice liao) & i know nuts bout d reasons behind, & felt super embarassed when ppl asked me & ying was the one who replied; li seems so occupied wif eujean/ying that wif or w/o my presence it doesnt seems to make much diff coz feel she doesnt care at all; no one, and i mean REALLY NO ONE to turn to when im down like this, d only person tt i feel i can talk freely to is in japan now (my dear qi); mum & dad still very anti Christ; bro scolded me "dun boliao" when i reluctant to eat prayed food & hold joss sticks; 1 gd fren drifting further away aft 1 nasty incident tt happened a few wks ago...

Received a consolation thou, when i was tearing on d stupid train juz now & decided to call my dad to pick me up frm the station. Turned out dad was busy so mum decided to cycle & fetch me instead. Felt so consoled & touched when i saw her standing across the street wif her bike, smiling at me waiting 4 me to cross the road to meet her. Aft much persuasion tt she is sure she is capable of biking me home, reluctantly i got on the seemingly dangerous position & to my surprise, it's a pleasant breezy SAFE ride back. Holding on to her waist while she cycled, i realized her tummy had grown to a rather significant size & throughout the way, i started preaching her to keep watch of her diet & eat less. (talking bout myself!) This dear mum of mine loves supper. Says cant sleep wif an empty stomach. Haiz.. Heng i can. ha..

Well, tml's family day. I owe them. Felt so guilty coz didnt spend much time wif them recently. Looking forward. =)