My Life, Your Story.

A guy juz pissed me off w a "jiayou".

It's stupid.
I shldnt get angry abt it.

But this inner me juz wished to throw the broken soles of my sports shoes on my hand towards this runner who happened to see me walking instead of jogging & uttered tt word to me.

Wished to juz shout at him, "Don't u have eyes to see my soles had dropped off???"

The thing is i never walked while out jogging. Prob i'm too self-conscious to do that. Unless something happened, like today.

Yes the suaiest thing tt can happen to someone who had pushed all her might to try to start her jogging routine after so long..

Having one sole dropped off when i'd juz jog 20 mins, angrily i juz ripped off another one & had them in my hands ready to whack them into a bin if i happened to pass by one while awkwardly walked back home in those awfully thin layers of shoes left for me to wear..

& tis joker came along @ the worst time of my life & passed tis remark.
I duno. The look on his face.. & the way he sounded. It juz totally pissed me off.
Yeahh thkx for ur little ENCOURAGEMENT over there..

I sweared i almost sweared.

Oh another gd part to add on it.
I incurred blisters, JUZ WALKING.

W-O-A-H wat a wonderful day.

Oh bothers..
I sound like a horrible ridiculous petty unreasonable bitch i know.
Which in actual fact, he is juz a kind HELPFUL soul huh??

Great. Problem lies w me.
I juz cldnt stop all the negative thinkings.

Ever felt tis horrible feeling when u know wat's RIGHT to think/do, but yet u juz cldnt pick up enuf energy to medidate on those more righteous things??

Exactly how im feeling now.

Restless, tired, lethargic. Like a real pig.

Felt tied down by something.
& i dun seem to have the strength to fight it back.

I desired no sound other than frm my family, dog, tv & music.
Which explained y i avoided all phone calls.
Sorry, to whoever..

Can juz imagine God's angels ard me fighting weakly against the devils, & advising me to talk more to God, to draw strength from Him, which i didnt really 4 these past few days. & guess those stupid devils are roaring w victory, sneering at how weak this child of God is really am.

Yes my flesh is indeed weak..

Hell i hate this phenomenon.

Guess i have to have more sweating out sessions, quiet meditations & of coz, READ the bible to liften my spirits up again.

Or to juz rely on my horrible mood swings to get me swing back to normal?

Hope this's only temporary.