My Life, Your Story.

I aint a consistent grl recently. Havent been reading my bible. Havent been doing quiet time.
That's y mood aint so gd. Few days w/o Jesus & i became like tis. Haiz. Only myself to blame.

Rather, had been spending time on comp games (irritating addictive maple story) & loads of gg out..

Guess who i saw today @ cine. Depressing. Yes its HIM. Mav.

Seeing him right infront of my eyes again juz froze me.
The feeling was totally wierd. Mixture of many emotions.

Prob the dorminating emotion wld be nervous.
I cld feel my hands turning cold str away.

He pretended not to see me. Fine. But i juz cldnt fake that too like him.
And how i wished i cld!
I'm so weak.
I cldnt take my eyes off him.
Yeah it sux..

Thou that same dreadful feeling still hit me since the last time i saw him @ The Passion of Christ, part of me had forgotten how it feels like missing him. Haiz. Time is an awful thing isnt it? It makes one forget abt the sweet little conversations once shared, & the sweet dizzy feeling one got frm too much of those. But i guess time is a present from God too. Coz it takes away the pain that comes along as well. ANY pain, w God & time, will be healed i guess..

Probably should take some time off doing some quiet self reflection on this.
I'm envying those times when i'm a baby christian full of pure faith & belief, & nvr tired..
Maybe i should stop putting on a strong front in front of my leaders le..