My Life, Your Story.

I'm a person who wonders A LOT.
And the funny thing is, i dun really like it. I dun like thinking abt stuffs! I wld rather spend my time watching the tv, stone there, den to use my brain to think thru things. But strangely, i still think A LOT.

Lat nite the issue of frenz & love came in. I started wondering to urself who really are my true frenz who truly loves me.

& it goes on and on.........

Prob it was sparkled by a small sms-ing incident tt happened yesterday afternoon. A thingy abt someone's bdae coming up. A fierce thought came up. "Y shld i cele or get anything for tt fren since she didnt even bother a bit for my own bdae. "

See, a serious thought here.

Yes, this problem here. Or rather, MY problem. I actually EXPECT.

It's really hard to love ppl who dun love u don't u think so?
That totally explains why i can so easily love li. And i tot that other than to my family, i tot i can nvr love a fren to this extent. It's so easy to love her bcoz d moment i tot of wat she'd done for me, i juz cldnt resist to love her back.

Sometimes i juz wonder. Do i love Jesus coz I tot He will bless me? Or that w Him i can feel peace in my heart? Or when He is ard makes me feel loved?

Or do i TRULY LOVE love Him, for who He is.... juz coz He is, Jesus.

I heard a voice last night while doing my quiet time. I weeped.
He told me this: There shldnt be any expectations dear. True love doesnt come with expectations.

Jesus didnt alwiz hang ard w His disciples who loved Him. He mixed ard w others, even some most well-hatred ppl, like tax collectors etc.
Jesus:
"But i say to you who hear: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you.
"bless those who curse you, and pray for those who spitefully use you.
"To him who strikes you on the one cheek, offer the other also. And from him who takes away your cloak, do not withhold your tunic either.
"Give to everyone who asks of you. And from him who takes away your goods do not ask them back.
"And just as you want men to do to you, you also do to them likewise.
"But if you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners love those who love them.
"And if you do good to those who do good to you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners do the same.
And if you lend to those from whom you hope to receive back, what credit is that to you? For even sinners lend to sinners to receive as much back.
"But love your enemies, do good, and lend hoping for nothing in return; and your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High. For He is kind to the unthankful and evil.
"Therefore be merciful, just as your Father also is merciful."
(Lk 6: 30-36)

Jesus, I salute You. Yes. I will stop complaining & start to love ppl more!
And i'm convicted to love You more too, not coz You can bless me, but juz coz You are Jesus, my only Lord!!!

Going to Thailand tml le.. Funny not excited at all. Haa.. hrmm hope i'll have fun la..
Can still sms me if u want, coz gg to use some special sim card jy's boss gonna gif us.. =)
Byebye.