My Life, Your Story.

It had been a hectic week.. Terrible. Never had i felt so busy & sick @ the same time. Yes i'd fallen sick again, ironically straight aft Pastor Benny Hinn's healing crusade at indoor stadium last wkend. ={ No time to exercise + eat right (i normally have to make an EXTRA effort to make sure i eat right.. pathetic rite.. -_-) and not enough sleep of coz --> fall ill la.. Haiz stupid Ntu. Nvr letting ppl go even though it's the last semester. So many stuffs to do.

Saw kenneth (amk) today in sch. So hapi to see him again! He was commenting on my purple eyes VERY nice.. haha. Finally someone complimented on my ever small eyes. (see? the power of coloured contacts!! hiak hiak.) He was astonished when i told him i had a presentation at 230 (it was 215 then in FAL) & i was ONLY starting to go thru the slides @ tt time, ordering my tots & what i shld say later. Yeah. I'm impressed w myself too. So calm huh. Haha. Somemore i'm the only one frm my grp who's presenting. I did less work, so have to present lor. And all of them shun to present. Probably my class is a Banking & Finance class that's y. Not use to presentations. I totally wont mind doing lesser work & do presentations! =p

Anyway it goes on well. Ungraded anyway so it's rather casual & relaxing. More like having conversations between me & the tutor than me presenting. *Thank God i understood his accent* He's a french, wat daniel simonet. Wonder do all french always like to interrupt ppl during presentations. -_- But one thing for sure. He's VERY proud of his language. Kept bragging non stop abt how "smooth & soft" french sound than english. Haha but i kinda agree. French's a lovely language. =)

Am trying to learn how friends feel recently, especially towards me being a christian. Sometimes i'll juz talk non-stop abt Jesus & stuffs w/o checking if they are willing to hear or not. I juz hope they will understand tt im not trying to force them into something or what, but rather, it juz naturally flows out from me coz it'd become a passion in my life. Ppl will tend to share more about their passions to their close frenz. That explains for me too. Hope they understand. But of coz, i'll tend to be more defensive towards my passion if someone is to talk something negative/ something i feel it's incorrect in my views. I juz hope it'll just be a sharing of different views and opinions subjective to discussions rather than evolving into a debate style.

Like today, i had conversations w several frenz on our way back home frm sch and i duno why it reached the topic of religions. Apparently one of them was an anti-christian, or rather, does not agree to many things about christians. For eg, she does not understand how come christians cannot go clubbing or gamble or drink. I tried to tell her the focus is more on the heart, and not the action. If a particular action leads u to think leeway, than it's not gd. Why lead urself to temptations when u noe u can avoid it? Expectedly she cant understand. Understandable la. How would i expect her to understand something within 10mins which took me 21 yrs to understand?

She very cute too. She said she can only believe in God if she can see Him. She could not push herself to believe in something tt she cant see or touch. Understandable also la. But I told her. If she don't believe, i put Jesus in front of her and Jesus did miracles (for eg. heal the blind, deaf etc.) for her to see she STILL wont believe. Belief doesnt come from sight. It comes from inside our hearts, faith. If really so, anyone wld believe that person is God when he/she sees him healing ppl. Chinese temples also got ppl heal sick mah. Drink "fu shui" wateva. Pastor Benny Hinn healed so many sick ppl in front of non-believers eyes mah. But are these healing ppl God? No mah.. In this case then which one will u believe in? So many ppl can heal sick ppl..

I guess i still have much to learn in talking to ppl, and being more sensitive so as not to provoke them. Indeed religion is a very sensitive issue. Some will just have the mentality that christians are so persistent and always think they are right. Haiz in a way, its not wrong to say so abt us. But have they put themselves in our shoes b4?

Why would we bother to go an extra mile kept asking ppl to come etc.?
Why wld we put ourselves in situations, deeeming ourselves to the lowest, prone to sacrasm, criticisms and umpteen rejections?
Why wld we wanna put our friendships' at stake when we try to touch on the "no-no" most sensitive issue of the world, religion?

I'm NOT TRYING TO CONVERT PPL. Really. It's out of my capabilities to determine that too anyway. And its useless. Conversion doesnt mean anything. A christian can lead a life as bad as the devil itself, if he choose to. I'm juz trying to help.. to be involved, in frenz current lives, in making them happier etc. That's what i want to do. I want all my frenz to be happy, or happier than they are now. I want to let them know there are so many things they nvr know instored in their lives! & these things can last not only in this lifetime. *wink*

By sharing this passion, i juz wanna share my joy to them as well.

Hope my frenz can have a better view of how i think and dun juz decide immediately im juz trying to show them my religion is the best... haiz gan kor arhh..