My Life, Your Story.

I'm back.. Well wat the excitement rite. Wats the pt of announcing here anyway? Prb im the only one ard reading my OWN blog. Whole weekend gone and the only smses I got are from few cg members, mostly abt admin stuffs. Wth. Ohh I forgot. Im suppose to be the one w very little frenz huh.

Fine I dun sound good i noe. Argh juz blame it on the stupid devil. He's alwiz so hardworking trying to destroy ppl's life EVERYtime, tireless. Yeah that's his only gd point probably, even though we are alwiz taught there's nothing GOOD in Satan.

Well, stupid satan here i'm. I give u credits for ur endless perseverence in constantly spoiling my mood and disrupting my inner well-being. Go to hell!!!!!!

I'm SERIOUSLY not a good-tempered person. I know it so well. I would have no mood for ANYthing. I would try my best to stay at home watching boring tv programs or juz simply lie whole day on the bed than go out and show my big fat ugly face to ppl, which in turn, may ruin their bright joyful day. Really. This works much better than trying to force a smile to ppl when in actual fact u juz feel so terrible inside.

My temper badly needs to be dealt with.
My thinking too.

No, my thinking, especially. It is the root of the bad temperedness, & it’s so screwed up right now.

I wonder do ppl fight with their own thinkings in their lives? Personal struggles? Coz it seems to me i'm like the only failure around. Or probably they juz DO whatever they feel like it. That's why they can feel alrite.. I cant. If I go back to those stuffs I did (& kinda like) in the past, I would be so indulged in them i'll be doomed. And it's this fighting back that makes me so disturbed.

I'm a sickened complainer.
& i'm very sick now. I need to go see my spiritual doctor, again.

Pardon me.