My Life, Your Story.

Dear Baobei..

I miss u so much.. Miss u lying by my side.. Miss u looking at me with yr that pretty big brown eyes.. Miss u whining at me when i refused to bring u downstairs.. Miss u cuddling urself up at my lap.. Miss u jumping up on me with joy whenever i reached home.. Miss u vying for enough room to sleep on my bed.. Miss the times when i played ball games with u at home, when we played tug & war, when u refused to give me the ball, & chased after me round & round the hse, and u will end up tired and went to drink ur water instead.. Miss the times when we went to the park and played catching & hide & seek; & the anxious look on yr face when u cldn't find me; & the relief thereafter when u saw me from afar, & came rushing towards me excitely..

And most of all, i just miss yr presence.
There's so much of u at home .. Ur toys.. the table u've chewed halfway.. Ur scratch marks on our doors.. The bear which u alwiz played.. Ur half chewed bones.. Ur toothbrush & paste.. Ur brush..

Do u noe i've even bought u a new brand shampoo? U didnt even have the chance to try it.. Not even once.. I know u hate the ear mite cleanser. I bought that one too.. Coz U alwiz have the mite problem..

And i didnt have the chance to bring u to sentosa again either.. I promised u that but had failed to do so.. I'm sorry..

I'm sorry for being so careless.. For not holding on to ur leash tight.. For giving u the chance to jump off that lorry.. I'm so sorry.. For making u suffer like this.. For making u bleed so much ..

That 4 hours in the clinic.. u've been strong. I'm so proud of u.. Thou ur breathing gets weaker and weaker, ur heart's still pumping hard. I noe u wanna live on.. Thou u are in a coma, i noe u can hear us.. I noe u wana come back to us.. To be well & healthy again.. Thanks for trying so hard dear..

Thanks for the wonderful 2yrs we had together. U really brought abundance of joy into our whole family. U've impacted each and every single one of us in many amazing ways that we can nvr imagine. Thanks for alwiz being there for me whenever im down.. I hope i'd been a good mummy to u too..

I trust that now you are carefree and happy.. running on big green pastures of fields with other pet frenz, awaiting to see their mummies & daddies again. Wait for me ok.. We will see each other again i believe! And we will live in this big mansion that God has prepared for us, and i'll bring u to swim everyday in our own private pool!

Thanks for all the wonderful times i'd with you. Thank God for putting u in my life.. For letting fe to pick u up at that road.. I will learn to let go of the hurt & pain of losing u.. and instead look forward to that day when i've accomplished my works on earth, and we will be reunited again.

Have told u many times le.. but i just wanna say again.
I love u zac. With all my heart.
Thanks for everything.