My Life, Your Story.

Back from Gentings.. Thou claimed that i wasn't tired last nite, i still struggled to get up this morning. The thought of taking mc hit my mind again, but i quickly brushed it off. Horrible. How long more am i going to satisfy my flesh?!?

On my comp, and as usual, my mailbox's flooded with work.. Out of the midst of the emails, i tried to pick out Daily Success Keys first. My usual habit. I got to read them first before i do anything..

9-Nov one was good. Title: Scripture Was Not Written To Increase Your Knowledge But To Transform Your Life.

It's exactly what i've been thinking abt for the past few wks.. When was the last time i felt my life not being transformed? It sounds strange, but life can (& should) be transformed everyday by reading God's word. Yes i still read the bible.. But does that means my life can be transformed? Do i just read it coz i know i shld read it, and it'll do my life gd.. or do i read & actually go do wat it says? Do i, as what the passage said, SURRENDER my all to His Word?

Point noted. It's always a struggle for me to do what God's word says. Coz honestly, it's not easy. Nope, not at all. I tried to use my whole strength & might to do what it says. I failed. I tried to psycho myself again & again to think positively, meditating on the verses again & again, and i failed.

I had a revelation last Thurs before i went cgm. A simple revelation but which comes at a perfect time, that's soso precious to me at this stage of my walk with Him. *Thank You!!*

Why do i struggle so much, when the Creator of the whole world, Lord over all lords is living within me? Why will i struggle so much, when i have the Holy Spirit, the best Guide of the whole world, to guide me through everything? I wondered to myself. Have i really surrender my all to Him?

Surrender not only means verbally admit - Lord, pls have Your way in me.
Surrender means giving my whole life to Him, the willingness to let Him do WHATEVER He wants in me! That's surrender!

And when i reali begin to realize this on the train on my way to cgm, it's like a huge huge rock was being lifted up off my heart, and i felt so light... I begin to reali understand wat it means by not by my own strengths & talents that i serve Him. I know i have talents! But does it matter to God, who creates all of us, who is perfect in all ways, having ALL the talents of this whole world?? No!! He only sees my heart, and that's wat makes all the difference..

I want to love myself all over again..

Yesshhh i know You will not let me fall. Let's claim this next victory together! =)