My Life, Your Story.

This new blogskin makes it much easier for me to read my archives as compared to my previous skin. And boy, i got so glued to my past entries! Haha.. That's why i like blogging.. Coz when you have the free time to look back at things you wrote before (which i juz did), it gets very interesting! I like it when i realized how much my thinking, my way of talking, my emotional state has changed these few years as i walk more with God.. The more i read, the more im thankful towards God of the changes He has made in me. =)

Hey me too, had my own period being a "baby christian". Me too, have my own fair share of struggles, doubts etc. I still recall this blog entry where the1st part of it i talked abt how much i enjoyed this particular clubbing incident, dancing w a few guys etc, and the next half part was on how i liked the presence of God in church etc.. haha.. duno. To me now, they just can't be inclusive anymore.

I was talking to someone earlier on, and mentioned that the ultimate revelation of the basis of our christian growth, is to know who we are in God, how we see ourselves in Him. Some people may say the most impt. thing is how God sees us. But think abt it. Did He see us differently in the past and present now? No. He loves us before, He loves us now, & He'll continue loving us in the future. In His eyes, we are made righteous through Jesus. But how do we see ourselves? Made righteous & holy, cleansed from past sins already? Or someone that's unworthy of God’s grace & mercy? Do we like ourselves? How God thinks about us is not the problem actually..it's how we think about ourselves.

It saddens me to see ppl who think that they know who they are in God, in which actual fact, they don't. They know God loves them. But they still live in a way as if God don't love them, because they see themselves unworthy of His love. And when they don't live out this revelation, they can't love themselves. And when they can't, they can't love others as well..

Being a "loving person" and being a "lover of God" is different.

A loving person looks as if they are more loving & caring to others, but without this ultimate revelation, they are limited to love a few selected ppl, coz they are only capable of that. That is human kind of love. Selective love, and with conditions applied. "I love because i wanna feel loved back by him/her. I give, so that i can receive back something in return." Convenient love. Natural love. "I love because he/she treats me good. I love because he/she is lovable."

Being a "lover of God" is different. A "lover of God" is capable of loving many, with no strings attached. Unconditional, agape kind of love. Love that sees beyond human flaws. Love that goes beyond expectations. Love that doesn't expect any returns. Love that doesn't drain out or dry up.

Love is the foundation of everything.. It motivates ppl to do extraordinary things, sometimes way beyond what they thought they can do, even up to the point of sacrificing their own life for another. Jh 15: 13 "Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends." You know what i find it so sweet & beautiful? That He loves me not when i'm a perfect saint, but when i was still a sinner, He loves me. And He don't just say it. Some ppl can say so many things about love, but yet with no actions backing their words up. In the end what you get? Empty promises. But He's not. He back it up with His actions. Real actions. Every promise He made, He back it up with answered prayers, with His still small voice, with His hugs & presence, with the cross.

That's the beautiful thing about love. His kind of love. And that's why I, along with so many others in my cg, in my church, in other parts of the world, are madly in love with this wonderful Lover. =)