My Life, Your Story.

I realized i'm someone that cries easily. I don't know is this a gd or bad thing...
I cry when i feel God's presence,
I cry when i don't.
I cry when i know i pleased God,
I cry when i know i'd grieved Him.
I cry when i feel blissed & complete,
I cry when i feel lost & helpless.
I cry when i see an sms that touches my heart,
I cry when i see one that hurts.
I cry when i see ppl cry for joy,
& I cry when i see them cry out in sorrow.

When i feel tied up, stressed or pressured, i feel like crying too.. haa.. I guess crying has become a stress-reliever for me le...

Then the funi thing is though i cry easily, i rarely cry when it comes to physical pain.. ha like just 2 days ago, i tripped & fell in the middle of the road while chasing after my bus (thank God there were no cars at tt time!), sprained my left ankle & bruised my right knee cap. It really hurt leh. But duno y my whole mind was "my bus my bus..." I quickly scrambled up to my feet, limped all the way across the remaining road while waving at the bus uncle to wait for me.. Upon settling down at one of the seats at the back, i then realized my right knee cap's bleeding pretty badly (haha i used up my one whole tissue pack lo) & my left ankle hurts even as i gently pressed it against the floor..

Then guess wat? I started laughing at myself ha... for being so clumsy! Cross the road also can fall down! Sigh!

Eh im getting abit out of point le... hmm MY POINT IS, i find it wierd tt despite the pain, i dun feel like crying at all! Hmm... den little emo things & i'll start pouring le.. Sometimes it reali irritates me how emotional i can get at times.. Yahz so tt makes one of my greatest resolutions in 2008 is to to keep my emotions in check, CONSTANTLY! No more overwhelming emotions, esp over little things!

But i got cheered up easily too (hey tt's a strength of a Sanguine!) & yea w Antz tt nite before he left, he kept teasing me,"so is ur love tank full now? must make sure it's full ok! Coz i'll be away for 1 whole week b4 u'll see me again!" (rah he sure noes wat my love lang is!) hahahaha.. so funi yet so sweet of him laz..

How i wish i can say my love tank can be filled by the Lord, & Him only to the brim everyday! ha but sadly no i cant yet.. still not a saint. still very "human" ah. I still need my love tank to be filled by ppl around me laz.. Yeah. The fulfilling of the "soul" part in me.

I wan to draw even closer to you Lord. To be so dependent on you & not on my own strengths. To let you control & keep in check my emotions.. To be infilled by your Spirit even more.. To alwiz have a thankful heart, giving you thanks in every single circumstance in my life.. & yes.. to fall even deeper in love with you in this new year.

Overcoming my weaknesses bit by bit, with You walking beside me. =)