Revelations tt i got from Netball? lolz

Had been staying at home d whole afternoon trying to rush finish some reports that are due next wk.. Bro's buddies came over to see zac and play Dai Di.. Chatted and played with them a bit (ha to think im able to click wif them.. 5yrs younger den me lor.. lol im still young at heart) Watched sports channels after that. Was fascinated by the game of football. Damn rough but seems tt those big guys were really enjoying themselves. Was supporting one of the teams called "Hurricanes", juz bcoz there was a damn cute guy inside..haha. A damn fast and agile runner. Reminded me of the past where i used to play competitively in netball.

The feeling was so nice, to be able to feel u belong in a grp and win/lose together as a team. And the satisfaction i got when i got rebounds (haha ying mu frm slam dunk? =P) or when i successfully intercepted some balls that were coming in the way of my opposition attacker. WHEW the feeling was juz so overwhelming!! But aft tt i juz lost total confidence in my skills and my abilities.

The fact tt im not tall enuf to play GD or GK, and tt WD was super unsuitable for me.. Haiz and when i got to "go out" to the "world" and saw soooo many strong players ard, it made me feel even demoralised. Low self esteem and lack of confidence came about.. And i was dropped to the bottom...i was lifeless when i came into NTU. Thinking i shldnt waste my time in any sports anymore, since i won't be able to excel in any i felt. Lost the "glow", the bubbly, and the craziness tt i had b4.

Wonder is this the path of life. That ppl will grow, sooner or later. And wonder is this change a gd or bad thing. But i guess nothing is definite. A change means a change, and there might be no gd or bad too... haiz duno la....

But one thing for sure. I sure do miss the netball times A LOT. The crazy runs and sprintings, doing hundreds of push-ups almost every training, the countless fun drills, euduring stupid horrible fitness stunts, the games... and also the gigglings, the gossipping of any cute guys ard or relationships probs, and the positive competition among us to get into the top 7.. haiz so many stuffs tt we did in the past together, as a team. Dun think i have the chance to experience this kinda stuffs again..

Nvm..... This is LIFE i guess~~