Sunday, June 15, 2008

It's going to be a new beginning soon.. for the both of us..
Honestly, i felt relieved when i heard abt it. A little excited too..
I know there are more things instored.. And now it's coming..

Tons of discussions with Antz prior to this, and now i'm glad with this new direction.

The interesting thing to note is that my thinking had changed a lot within this one year even without me even realizing it myself.. Antz pointed out regarding some viewpoints that i argued with him last year, and i'm surprised that i actually reacted so strongly about them last time. It amazes me how different we were at the beginning, but now we are challenging & influencing each other in the way we think, that we slowly began to stand on the same line. It's like finding a balance between 2 extremes, and i'm so glad we are making it happened.

Spoke to a friend few days back, and she was telling me of some problems she's facing with her bf lately. Simply put it - character flaws show up as time goes by, friend starts having 2nd thoughts.

Not wanting to be judgemental or wat, but it got me thinking of the way how people treats relationships nowadays. They are taking it so lightly. Getting together or breaking up.

To me, those flaws are not fatal. They can be improved.. changed even.. with a little motivation & gentle reminders.

It's not like Andy & i are free from character flaws. We also have our "can't stand u" moments lol. But i always feel when 2 people decided to come together, they should start to learn to have the best interests for each other, and not just for themselves. If you want that person to change for the better, you first start changing for the better too. Coz it's no longer about yourself. It's about you & him, 2 people.

& if you feel you are not ready to get into a relationship yet, or is still hanging on to some negative residues of the past that requires you more time before you can let them go, then don't.
Don't just charge into one when passion or chemistry *or Pastor's famous quote "the urge to merge" =p* arises...
It's alwiz safer to observe that special someone that caught your attention just a little longer.
Coz it might surprised you when his true character eventually shows up.

That was what i learnt in the past. The hard way.

Still, back to the point.. a relationship is not final either. If you had tried all that you could, and things are still stagnant, and you really cant picture that person to be someone whom you want to spend the rest of your life with, then it's time to let go and move on.. Nobody is in any position to judge your relationship and make the decision for you as only you yourself know the best. That's what i always believe.

I thank God for Andy again. I know we are both working together towards something great as we help to mould each other's characters and extreme personalities hee.

Thank God for being in the center. He shows us what goal to work towards to. Without Him, we'll be directionless! Hallelujah!

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